Just a short update to let you all know where I have been. I have been struggling with my mental health for months but due to various factors I have kept going when I really should have stopped and reached out for help.
I AM NOT SUPERWOMAN
Sometimes I fool myself into thinking I am. And that is where the trouble starts. My life is already jam packed under normal circumstances. Now like other working parents I am trying to juggle work, keeping home, raising my kids and trying to keep myself sane. There is now the added pressure of homeschooling, trying to keep my children physically and mentally well from the effects of this situation with none of my usual go to resources that keep me mentally well. It is an impossible task. I have made myself ill trying. I got to the point where I couldn’t go from one hour to the next without crying. This unmanageable situation has broken me. I have now taken some time off work while I increase my antidepressant and anxiety medication.
I am not ok yet but I will be.
I know I’m not the only one feeling the strain. Mum’s and Dad’s all over are just stretched to the limit. There is too much pressure, too little support. We can’t do it all.
For now I am going to try and focus on breathing from one moment to the next. To get fresh air and outdoor activity when I can. To not feel guilty or selfish if I put myself first at home occasionally.
Baby steps. And medication!
There is no shame in taking medication to help with depression or anxiety. It is a chemical imbalance in the brain. If you had high blood pressure I’m guessing you’d take a pill for it. This is no different. Things are really tough right now so please reach out for help if you are struggling. Your GP can help. I have also put some numbers below for helplines. My inbox is always open on Facebook and Instagram if you want to talk. I am not trained but I am a good listener.
Take care lovely people and please stay safe xxx