That’s right. I’ve spent years trying to be a ‘new me’ but at the wise old age of 41 I have come to realise that I quite like me. The real me. As opposed to the me who was trying to be some kind of better version of myself. Now don’t get me wrong I am not perfect and that’s not what I am saying here. What I am saying is that actual me is just fine. I don’t need to be a newer version of that, although there are some areas for improvement. No radical overhauls here. I also don’t do resolutions but this year I have got some goals.
Let’s call a spade a spade. I am clinically obese. Now I have struggled with this one a bit (and I don’t mean the actual weight) because it’s very ‘in’ to be body positive and all that. Well I have tried that. I have tried to be body accepting but I don’t seem to be doing very well at that either. In actual fact I fucking hate my body. Not because the media tells me I should conform to some type of body shape or any kind of outside pressure. I hate the fact that when I bend over it’s a strain because my stomache is big. In the summer wearing a dress is a killer as my chubby thighs rub and chaff. Let’s not forget the delightful apron that 2 c sections has left me with with the crease that gets all sweaty when I’m hot. I also hate that buying clothes is a complete pain in the arse because I have to try everything on to see how it fits on me. I have things I want to do. I want to be able to chase after my grandchildren. I want to do the Inca trail and I want to remain as active as I can for as long as I can. Currently my body weight is working against that, my joints are achy and I have such low energy. Some changes needed to be made.
Ah change how we loathe thee. Anyhoo…I am being more mindful of what’s going in my mouth (my other half will snigger at that). Children’s scraps are for the dog not me and it definitely does count even if you are standing up. I have even joined the gym! I want to do the God damn Inca trail and I’m not gonna make it if in 10 years I’m 20 stone riddled with arthritis.
I want to go on as many adventures as we can squeeze in. How fast these little people grow. I would love to visit Devon/Cornwall this year for our holiday and explore some of the sights around there. You know I would really love to go see Stonehenge actually. Be sure to let me know any recommendations if you know the area
Always a struggle this one as there never seems to be enough time. But I’m going to work extra hard at this one because being mentally healthy is just as important as being physically healthy. What I really need is a good planner. Or a clone. Both would work I guess.
I love this blog I really do. I never thought I would really find things to keep writting about but apparently I can witter on about a load of shite infinitely. I really want to make it a bit more professional though and hopefully reach a few more people with it. So learning about SEO and how to improve my DA is about to be a thing. Feel free to give me ALL the tips here because trust me I need them.
That’s pretty much it. I want to be kinder to myself and more patient too!
Have you guys got any goals for the year? I would love to hear what you are doing.
Love and peace xxx